Are you the type of person who wishes for something or someday to get here and then realize that you are wishing your life away? That's me. Ever since I met my Tater, we have been working towards a goal, get him into CRNA school. Once he got in, we both let out an audible sigh of relief, 'he's in!'
We wished and hoped and prayed for that day. And it finally came. What we didn't realize was how hard it was going to be once he actually started school.
We have had numerous talks about our future and we both think that right now, we aren't really 'living,' we are working towards a common goal, graduate school and get a job! Come on June 2015.
It seems so far away. Maybe because I'm impatient and maybe because it really is far away.
Most people our age are reaching certain milestones: buying houses and cars, having kids, taking elaborate vacations. Us? We live in a rental we can barely afford, both drive cars that are at least a decade old and have ole Norman. And vacation? We have totally forgotten what that word even means...whenever we have a free weekend (which is never!) all we want to do is nothing; like sleep till noon, watch movies and eat pizza kind of nothing.
Our future is eventual. All of our sentences start or end with eventually. "Eventually, we can have a refrigerator that has an ice maker (it's the little things folks)."
"We'll be able to afford a nicer (not even new) car eventually."
"We'll have kids, eventually." (Baby fever is rearing its ugly head at me; but that's a different post at a later time!)
We knew it wasn't going to be easy. Things never are. You have to work for them, and I'm ok with that. Sometimes I'd just like to take a break!
And that's where the fun comes in.
Once Tay graduates from CRNA school, the world is our oyster. We don't have to live in Mississippi. We can move. We can move anywhere. I even looked up CRNA jobs in Alaska yesterday. Populated Alaska, not crazy alien abduction Nome, Alaska. There are so many opportunities there. Tay said no, "how about Hawaii?" I suggested Colorado and Wyoming and Arizona.
At school, Tay has been in contact with a recruiter, right now there are opportunities in Chicago...no thanks. But, when the eventual graduation day FINALLY arrives, this recruiter can help Tay find a job wherever he wants to go. Wherever!
Even though our life is full of non-stop work, studying, picture-taking weekends and everything in between, we dream often our future in Colorado or Alaska or Florida or Hawaii or any of the other 50 states.
Not many people get the opportunity to pick where they want to live and raise kids and puppies, so in that aspect, I consider Tay and I the luckiest people.
P.S. - Please pray that June 2015 arrives sooner rather than later, as I and my husband are both going absolutely stir crazy!
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